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The Crazy Life

October 10th, 2005 (09:36 pm)

current mood: bitchy
current song: Pink Floyd

Well tomorrow...I go back to work...UGH! Working in public service drives me insane sometimes...Note to self...Look for a new job.

Things are great! I really can't complain. BUT there's always something. I know things are hard for Casey. He's going through a harder time than any of us around here have gone through ever. And he hasn't really talked to me about it much. He has a lot of nightmares, and shakes a lot in his sleep. I know it will be that way for a while. Casey is so laid back and doesn't really say much, but I know there's something going on here. He's acting different, kinda distant.

He's still just as sweet as before, but somehow he's not the same. He won't kiss me hello, kiss me goodbye, and barely kissed goodnight. No hugs. And no PDA, especially in front of "the boys." He'll disappear for a whole day (like today for instance) with one of his friends who I know own a cell phone. I'll leave in the morning around 9 or 10 and it's now 15 'til 10 and I haven't heard one little peep from him. I have other stuff to do with my day (thank God) but there's still those feelings of worrying and WHAT IS HE DOING?! Maybe I'm over-reacting. I know he probably needs his space after being cooped up with me for three weeks in DC, but after taking care of him and waiting on him hand and foot, I at least deserve a small tiny phone call just to say, "Hey, I'm alive." I swear that boys DO NOT think at all with their brains and if weren't for women they wouldn't be able to do shit. The would be lifeless blobs who don't do anything but sit on the couch, eat chicken wings, watch golf and baseball, and go to the bathroom. IDIOTS! I'm so pathetic that last night, he says, "I sure am thirsty." And my little blonde ass without even thinking jumps up and makes it half way to the kitchen before I realize he does still have two legs. And last time I checked two arms. And he is able to walk to the freaking kitchen...."Get your own damn cranberry juice." GEEZ....He ought to at least do something nice for me. A movie, or just dinner. Would he have jumped up and got me cranberry juice? NO WAY! Hell, We've only been on one real date EVER!!!! (which usually I don't care about going out, BUT Hello?! I need to do something besides you and golf) AGH! YES, I am mad, and YES, I feel underappreciated. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH STUPID MEN!!!

Sorry about the boy-bashing....it just needed to happen.
Other than that, great day, watched two movies, had my hair touched up, and drank a lot of Coca-Cola! My cousin came up from Florida to do a little hunting with my dad. God, I sound like a redneck. LOL!

At least there's always tomorrow.


Posted by: Jen (amazing_chaos)
Posted at: October 11th, 2005 10:49 am (UTC)

I'm sorry you are feeling underappreciated. Men sometimes don't understand that we need to be thanked and we need affection. He has been through a hard time but so have you. I'm sure he realizes what a wonderful girlfriend he has in you. Just concentrate on taking care of yourself right now too(which I'm sure has been pretty much on hold the last few weeks) and he will come around. How can he not? He's a very lucky man and I'm sure he will realize it in time. Hang in there. It'll get better!

Posted by: Little Miss Cranky Pants (misscrankypants)
Posted at: October 11th, 2005 12:31 pm (UTC)

He might just be retreating to sort things out in his own head and because of that you are being neglected. I don't know all the particulars of your relationship but I do know you both have been through a really stressful time. I'm sure that he doesn't realize what he is doing. Just let him know you are there if he does want to talk but don't force it.

And you CERTAINLY do not have to wait on him. It is nice to pamper them once in awhile but beck and call? Not necessary! If he wants something he can ask or get it himself. "I SURE AM THIRSTY" is passive-aggressive bullshit that should be nipped in the bud. Unless he's joking, in which case I'd laugh at him and say, "you're not in the desert anymore soldier! A whole host of beverages are available mere STEPS AWAY in your very own REFRIGERATOR!!!!!!!"

Hang in there, he probably just needs some time.

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