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January 30th, 2006 (10:40 pm)
chipper

current mood: chipper
current song: Motley Crue

Well, it seems like I'm back to my same old boring life. Casey is now back in New York. I know...its sucks real bad. And yeah, he's closer to the physcho girl that called me but hey, he loves me, so I'm not real worried about it. I haven't really talked to him a lot lately. By the time he gets done working, I'm going into work, and we don't really get to cross each others' paths a lot during the day. I really miss him here though. Its like perfect weather too. Not too cold, not too hot. Not like NY, where its always freaking cold. I'm trying to plan a trip to see him for St. Patty's. I wish it were Valentine's because this will be our first one. DAMN, that sucks. Still going to the gym every day. And still eating freaking salads. I swear if I don't get to eat a freaking BIG MAC soon, I'm gonna FLIP-OUT! I could eat my right arm off right now. And I would give my right tittie for a beer (because I haven't drank in a while either). My dad had surgery Monday, (for those who don't know me, he was diagnose with thyroid cancer like two days before Xmas and had removal surgery )he's doing good though. Got home from the hospital and caught a cold. I hate it for him. I know he was kinda miserable anyway and now its worse. He's only 45, still young, he'll pull through just fine. I'm so super close to my dad so this ordeal has inspired me to get yet another fine and fabulous tattoo. I have three already. I have the state flag on my lower back, a sunshine on my butt cheek, and the ducks unlimited duck head (matching Casey's) with an american flag on my hip. SOOOOO.....Saturday I will be getting my fourth. I am getting a sailfish jumpin out of waves going around my hip-bone. I CAN'T WAIT! I'm so excited! YAY! I will update how cool it looks. Other than that, still same old same old. Missing Case, fighting with the sis, hating working at a bar, but hey, loving life. Somebody, please reply to my damn post...Love you.

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January 22nd, 2006 (11:12 pm)
pissed off

current mood: pissed off
current song: Kelly Clarkson (Gay I know)

You know what I hate.....MEAN PEOPLE!

Today, I was minding my own business, unloading Casey's trunk from Iraq and my cell phone rings. Its an unknown number, looks like a calling card number, thinking it may be Casey, so I answer. Its a girl. "Do you know who this is?" she says. Of Course I didn't know. Then she proceeds to tell me that she is Casey's ex-"girlfriend" (in quotations because they weren't really boyfriend/girlfriend) from New York who he hasn't been with or seen in 8 months. Her exact words..."I just wanted to let you know that me and Casey have been talking behind your back." My reaction, WHAT?! And she says "Yeah, I know he said he said that he may not stay with you and is looking to get back together with his exgirlfriend from high school." I very politely say, "Thank you so much for that little bit of info but I really have to get off the phone." And I hang up. Of course by now, I'm hysterical. WHAT A BITCH! Anyway, I immediately call the number back and it is from a calling card. DAMN! I call Casey to tell him what happened and he is as shocked as I am. HE IS PISSED! To the point of tears because he cannot believe that someone would do this. He calls her and basically blessed her out. She swears up and down it wasn't her and that she know nothing about this. He says that he knows her well enough to trust her judgement. He says that this girl is engaged and he hasn't spoken with her since his accident (just making sure he was okay). I knew that he had talked to her then. I don't know what the hell is going on.
Well, then this girl knows nothing about me, except the fact that I'm blonde and has no idea where I live where I'm from or my number. Then my sister said that a girl called my house this afternoon about the same time saying that she had lost her cell phone and needed to know my cell number so she could store it in her phone...PHYSCHO! Anyway, somebody whether its that girl or someone trying to pretend to be that girl is trying her damndest to screw with mine and Casey relationship. Kinda convenient since he's leaving for New York TOMORROW! WTF! I'm really disappointed in the fact that whether its her or someone else that there are actually people in the world that do that sort of thing. And besides the fact that I could've called her a million times to tell her to quit screwing with my man and I didn't do that. I let them be friends because he was going through a lot. Why after 8 months would she just now be calling? And if it was her and she really knows him then she would know that he didn't even have any girlfriends in high school so who would he have to get back together with. AND, obviously she doesn't know who she's FUCKING WITH! I will definitely punch a bitch. That is pretty messed up, huh?

Besides that drama, I've been drama free, working alot, and drinking very little. I'm on my way to the 25 pounds to lose and going on my 4th week at the gym. YAY! Got first runner up in the pageant. Wish I could've won, then I would go to Miss SC again. One more pageant on the 4th. I hope I can win that one. That would be my last chance to go. Working a double tomorrow and a lot more this week. Hope everyone else is doing well....

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For fun.

January 20th, 2006 (11:23 pm)

Just for fun....(borrowed from asoldiersgirl....Thought it was cute.


01. DO YOU HAVE ON A LOT OF MAKE-UP?
Yes, I just got off work


02. HOW MUCH DO YOU PUT ON?
If a make-up company makes it, I have it on


03. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO GET READY?
Usually 1 hour

04. DO YOU PUT ON A LOT OF LIPGLOSS?
I am obsessed.


05. DOES IT SMELL GOOD?
YES!

06. DO YOU CARRY A PURSE?
A southern girl always carrys a purse.

07. WHAT COLOR IS IT?
has to match the outfit

09. DO YOU HAVE COACH BAG?
YES! and it is my first love.

11. HOW MANY PURSES DO YOU HAVE?
Probably over 50

12. DO YOU LIKE TO WEAR NAILPOLISH?
NO...

13. HOW OFTEN DO YOU GET YOUR NAILS DONE?
Only for pageants.


14. DO YOU LIKE MANICURES?
yes

15. WHAT ABOUT PEDICURES?
I don't like feet.

16. DO YOU HAVE A USUAL NAIL SALON YOU GO TO?
Yes

17. WHERE DO YOU GET YOUR HAIR CUT?
Hair Creations.

18. DO YOU DYE YOUR HAIR?
Yes, but I wouldn't tell anyone but you guys. LOL.

19. DO YOU STRAIGHTEN YOUR HAIR?
No, its too damn straight.

20.DO YOU HAVE LOTS OF PAIRS OF SHOES?
YES...

21.WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE SHOES?
My red BCBG pumps

23. DO YOU WEAR HEELS EVERYWHERE?
I used to, but now I'm really digging my Sperry's.

24. CAN YOU WALK IN HEELS AND NOT FALL OVER?
YES


25. WHERE DO YOU BUY YOUR CLOTHES?
The Limited, Abercrombie, and Arden. B.

26. DO YOU GO SHOPPING EVERY WEEK?
I WISH!

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE STORE?
Arden B.

28. HOW MUCH DO YOU USUALLY SPEND?
As little as possible

29. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN DIOR?
YES, in NY

30. DO YOU FOLLOW FASHION TRENDS?
YES...big time.

31. DO YOU HAVE A PAIR OF HUGE SUNGLASSES?
I have over 10 pairs of HUGE and I mean HUGE sunglasses...its a weakness

35. HOW MANY PAIRS OF EARRINGS DO YOU HAVE?
A LOT LOT LOT LOT

36. DO YOU WEAR HOOP EARRINGS?
umm....no

37. DO YOU HAVE A LOT OF SHORT SKIRTS?
YES....gotta show some leg.

38. DO YOU SHAVE YOUR LEGS?
Everyday.

39. DO YOU GET YOUR EYE BROWS DONE?
NO.

40. CAN YOU APPLY MASCARA WITHOUT OPENING YOUR MOUTH?
No...ha ha.

41. DO YOU WEAR EYELINER?
Yes....

44. DO YOU DO PILATES OR YOGA?
Are you freaking kidding?


45. DO YOU HAVE ALOT OF MAGAZINES?
Just Cosmo.

46. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF A GIRLY-GIRL?
You know what's funny....I love fashions, but hate to shop. Not too much a girly-girl huh?

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January 20th, 2006 (11:12 pm)
current mood: busy

Just wanted to post a quick entry....not too much going on.
Same old same old. I have been working A LOT! Today, a 12 hour day. It sucked. I sometimes hate working in a bar and then I love it at the same time. It sure is easy money, but can be stressful and too much drama for my taste. I like my little life to be as drama-free as possible. As for Casey, he's getting shipped back to NY on Monday which Thank God I didn't buy my plane ticket this week to go see him the 2nd week in February. I really want to go with him. The army doesn't care about girlfriends though. Only wives. That SUCKS! Tomorrow, I have a pageant. Wish me luck! We'll see. I swear that I have nothing else in the world to complain about except for the fact that Casey isn't here. Write more later. Promise.

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January 12th, 2006 (12:05 am)
stressed

current mood: stressed

I know that I just updated like an hour ago, and just to warn you this post is going to very emotional and personal.

I have done everything in the world for that boy and it just seems that whatever I do I get nothing in return. I want to talk, I call him, and he is asleep. He fell asleep and didn't call me back. I don't want to be that psycho girlfriend that has to call in the middle of the night because she doesn't know where her man is. And calls like a hundred times and even asks the roomate "Do you know where Casey is?" I am not that girl. I am the concerned girlfriend, who spent weeks watching her man suffer in a hospital room the size of my bathroom, who can't sleep at night for the fear of something bad happening to him because she's already almost lost him once. I cry at night because I want him here beside me and the stupid ARMY won't let him out because he's not a certain percentage disabled. I deal with the bullshit about 'where is your boyfriend' and 'don't you miss him', and 'I couldn't do that'-you know the stupid shit that no one has to deal with unless you're a military loved one. I AM that girl. I cannot even begin to put into words how much I love and care about Casey. As soon as I saw him, I knew that was it for me. I literally said, "I want to marry him." I am terrified of losing the one person that I care about more than anything. I am the one who watched him go though so much, who held his hand when they took out his stitches, the one who changed his bandages and wiped his nose because he couldn't, the one who supoorted him even when he hated the world, the one who really wanted a date but didn't go on one because he didn't want to be around people. I quit my school and my job to take care of him for two months and can't even make a FUCKING PHONE CALL to talk to me about what's going on here at home. I don't know if he just doesn't want to talk because he can't be here and do anything about OR if he just doesn't want to talk at all. There should be a manual for military girlfriends and if there is one, can someone send it to me? I don't deserve this. If I'm sick, I want him here to take care of me, rub my tummy, and wipe my tears. I just want my boyfriend back. PLEASE!!!!! If President Bush was here right now, I'd punch him. They're making him more depressed and more miserable by keeping him there away from the things that make him happy and with people that he doesn't know. If I want to go see him, I can't. If I want to kiss him, I can't. If I want a hug, I can't get one. And you know what sucks even worse, if I can't even hear "I love you." when I want. I know he loves me. I know he misses me. He doesn't have to say it. But for all the time that HE chose for US to spend apart, I want SOMETHING!!!! I feel like I could stay up all night crying but I know that he wouldn't want me doing that. I really hate the ARMY right now, and I hate Washington DC, and I hate hate hate IRAQ! I would really give a million dollars if Casey could come home tomorrow. So God, if you're listening (or reading) could you please bring my boyfriend back to Prosperity like in the next month. I will really do better if you can. I promise that I will quit drinking and cursing and go to church more often. Please do this. I can't afford a plane ticket to go up there. I have 20 dollars to my name right now. If you don't bring him home, can I please win the lottery so I can't buy a ticket to go see him.

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January 11th, 2006 (09:30 pm)
pissed off

current mood: pissed off
current song: Sevendust

If Casey doesn't call me in the next 10 minutes........ I'm not gonna answer the phone the next 100 times that he calls me so he knows what the fuck it feels like to really need to talk to someone and how bad it fucking sucks when you can't get in touch with them. I'm really pissed right now if you can't tell. ONE) because I haven't talked to him in 3 days. TWO) because when he's says "I'll call you later." He doesn't THREE) Because I'm so stupid that I actually believe him and FOUR) Because I was there for him through all the shit he went through and can't even fucking do me the smallest favor like give me a tiny phone call when that's all I want and ALL I DESERVE. HELLO!? Get a mother-fucking clue, K-Bo. I'M the one who sat here after you went to Iraq. I'M the one who dropped everything to take care of you. I'M the one who sits here and waits for you to come home. I'M the one whoe puts up with the BULLSHIT, not you. I'm so PISSED. Is it that damn hard for boys to grasp the simple fact of, "If I do something that she wants me to do, then maybe she won't be so pissed off at me for the rest of my life." ? If he was here I'd punch him. UMM YEAH, me, girlfriend, still waiting....SHIT!

p.s. I know it sounds like I'm super pissed, because I am, but I still love him. Damn I suck.

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January 8th, 2006 (11:10 pm)
sick

current mood: sick

Yeah, so, I'm 23 years old, and still living at home, and still bartending at the same freaking restaraunt that I was 2 years ago. I am so tired of working a BAR! I dread going to work tomorrow, being around all that smoke (I'm a non-smoker) and being in all the drama and screwed up lives that it has to offer. Its not the actual place that I'm tired of, its just the atmosphere. I need a GROWN-UP job. I have a college degree, why is so difficult to find a J-O-B? Jesus!

I call Casey at least twice a day. I have got to stop. Even when he says, I'll call you back, I call him before he gets a chance to even call me. I call him and he doesn't feel like talking so I get off the phone. Tonight, he knew it aggrevated me. And being the super sweet boyfriend that he is, he actually called me back to talk. AWWWWW!!!

My room is so messy that there's probably something growing in there. I'm never here and even when I am, I've got better things to do, like the internet, LJ and Facebook. I know, I'm a nerd. And now I think I'm going to watch MTV, then sleep on the couch because I can't even get to my bed. LOL.

G'night.

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January 7th, 2006 (10:55 pm)
exhausted

current mood: exhausted
current song: Purple Rain

First of all, I got super duper WASTED last night. Barf-ola. I stayed up until 8:30 and had to be at work at 10:30. I didn't show up until 12:30. Felt throw-up-ish all freaking day long. And when you bartend the very last freaking thing that you need is to smell any kind of liquor or beer that you got retarded on the night before. OH MY GOD!!!! I HAVE TO QUIT DRINKING!!!! AGH!! Barf-ola.

Second of all, I hate talking on the phone just as much as you do Case, but the only freaking way I can talk to you is by phone, retard so please please please act like you like it DAMMIT! And why you're acting like you like it, please act like you really reallyreally miss me more than I miss you. (Wish he only read this. DAMN!)

Third of all, I went to party where I knew that my ex-fiance would be with his new girlfriend. We haven't dated in a long time, but we still try to keep in touch. We dated for 6 years. I always knew he wasn't the one. Unlike Casey, when I met him, I knew he was. Anyway, he's gained about 40 pounds and his new girlfriend makes stomach turn. Tonight, I had a great moment. You know you rock when you old boyfriend's new girlfriend gets pissed off for him looking at you. How cool is that? I wanted to die!!! HA HA HA bitches. I've lost weight, look awesome, and feel even better knowing that I am completely happy with myself and with my Casey. I love him. They ended up leaving because I was there. Not because I was being mean, cause I would never...But I'm so sorry that she felt uncomfortable. BARF-OLA.

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January 5th, 2006 (10:01 pm)
bouncy

current mood: bouncy
current song: The Who

Updating Two days in a row...I'm doing good.
Got sunburnt in the tanning bed.
It sucks.
Went to the gym....YAY!
Got really sore.
It sucks.
Back on track.
That's good.
People don't understand how stressful pageants are on you body.
Damn beauty pageants.
Casey actually called me a lot today.
Surprising, but made me love love love him some more.
This sucks.
I miss him a lot lot lot lot lot.
Bought tickets to see Motley Crue next week.
Cannot wait, its the best concert ever.
Note to self: Next life, Become a ROCK STAR!

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Long Time

January 4th, 2006 (08:10 pm)
blah

current mood: blah
current song: Dave Matthews

Whoa! Its been a long time since I last updated....Damn, get on the ball Jess. There's been so much going on.

Casey came home for Thanksgiving and Christmas. We really had a lot of good times while he was here, which was great! He got a me a digital camera for Xmas. I LOVE IT. Now I can take a lot of pics of us because I have none...He went back to DC on December 29 which sucked because New Year's is my favorite holiday and I had to spend it without him. It was a lot harder this time around because I'm sooooo used to him being here. Now, I don't know what to do with myself. IT SUCKS! I think they are gonna send him back to Ft. Drum too, which sucks even more because that's a lot farther away than D.C. and I'm definitely not ready for that. I forget that the army is paying for him to stay at Walter Reed and for being in the army, so if he goes back to Drum, they won't being spending so much. I wish they'd just dish out some xtra cash, send him home, and let it be over with. Plane tickets aren't cheap these days and the army sucks.

I recently because an aunt. Casey's brother and his girlfriend just had a baby girl, Kennedy Joy on the December 30. She weighed 7 lbs 14 oz and is 21 inches long. YAY! We have a niece! Very excited about that....

New Year's Resolution(s)....
Finish losing the 20 lbs I started losing in November.
and be a little more devoted to Live Journal, which I've kinda neglected.
and to stop working in a bar....yuck.

Update more later....promise.

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